Expectations vs Reality: Backcountry Skiing

Expectation: Pow on the Coleman Deming (expectation = met)
Reality: Two of your friends were left wallowing behind down below, and actually you bailed on climbing ice on Colfax
Reality: yeeting your skis across creeks

You see the drone videos following a skier through a tight couloir. Or maybe it’s a GoPro on one of those sticks that erases itself like how you can’t see your nose. Or maybe it’s a professional skier following them WHILE FILMING because they can. Maybe there’s dubstep or reggae or even classical music in the background. The youtube compilations to music that makes you want to escape and hurt your heart when you’re sitting on the couch on a dreary Tuesday living the best life of a mushroom because that’s what living in Seattle is like, being a mushroom. The images in ads, in outdoor magazines, on the walls of REI and Patagonia and Arc’Teryx stores, and of course, all of the Facebook and Instagram posts that your friends are making with perfect snow conditions and great views and no suffering and no bails ever and it’s never rainy on their trips for some reason. Maybe your coworkers know when you’re stressed because they catch you staring forlornly at your desktop background, a rotating selection of the best shots of your top trips of all time. Maybe they think they’re default backgrounds or lock screens and that’s why they haven’t said anything (that’s what I tell myself).

Well let’s levelset here. Backcountry skiing is like 90% type II fun, 8% variable conditions, and 2% the best skiing and adventure you could possibly find. In fact, let me break that down into a more detailed visual based on the type of snow you can expect.

Note % of time spend in actual pow. Hot n heavy = unskiied mashed potatoes and ice could be further broken down into above/below treeline.

Okay, moving on to gear. Don’t pitch me on a she-wee, there are still many layers of harness/clothing to get through and nonzero risk involved. And if you’re a coffee aficionado, I wish you luck. You all know the feeling when you are finally geared up head to toe and NOW is when your body decides it actually does need to pee.

Pros of bibs: no snow up your back if you wipe out
Cons of bibs: Bodily fluids stay in the bibs
Reality: gear malfunctions

Now that you have your gear situated and are (proactively) entirely depleted of bodily fluids, let’s get to the trip.

No, wait. By “having your gear situated” I mean… how confident are you, really? What if your binding breaks? Did you forget skins? Your boot could snap at the top of a couloir leaving you in walk mode for the whole ski down. You could drop a pole in a river. Snow could be sticking to your skins or even your skis if you’re lazy about waxing either and/or both (guilty). Multiply those risks by however many people you’re with.

Ok, I think we’re clear on the gear issues and the fact your downhill ratio will be higher (but not in a good way) if you suck at skiing like I did for years. So what are you going to be thinking about during this trip? What other skills do you need to hone?

On a great trip, you’ll spent about 85% of the time going uphill and 15% of the time going downhill. This is why I’d generally recommend learning to ski at a resort, because if you go straight to the backcountry like some of us, you’ll spent more like 50% of your time going downhill, and not in the enjoyable way you want. But assuming the 85/15 up/down (which honestly might be generous on the down) here’s where you’ll probably expend your mental energy.

I used to be hot headed and gung ho but now I spend more time in the 17% ready for beer
“Good thing it’s not bushwhack related because there’d be a #DIV/0 error” -Brad
Reality: friends are useless except for pics

F-bombs per capita per hour is fascinating because it covers both extreme ends of the success spectrum, the “ah fuck we’re fucking fucked” but also “this is the freshest fucking powder I have ever fucked with fuck yeah and even the satisfied “fuck yeah” with a fist bump at the end. There aren’t many in between, though, so the more calm you are, the fewer f bombs.

Then you have the excuses to take breaks and try to cope. A few ideas, if you need something to say that isn’t “I need to catch my breath” or “I need to scream into a jacket for a sec:”

“I need a snack/water”
“I need to take a few pictures”
“I need to check the map”
“Oh shit I forgot to put my phone in airplane mode”
“Wow look at that ice formation, that’s cool”
“Wow weird how the snow changes right here”
“Did you hear that” “Hear what” “No nothing”

Speaking of map checks, this is a terrible habit I have when I start to drag. Checking the map over and over aka watching my own progress 2 meters at a time because I can’t figure out how to put alpine quest into freedom units.

If I check 10 times a minute you know I’m dying
Bad ass pulling a sled.in a whiteout?

Did you see the tumblr a decade ago called “reasons my son is crying”? It’s a stream of photos of some guy’s toddler crying about ridiculous things (ex. “I told him he couldn’t eat the dog treats.”) I thought I should include a list of reasons you might find yourself crying on an adventure.

Or incapable of skiing more than 50ft?

1. You postholed hip deep/fell into a tree well for the 3758295th time
2. You are still. so. far. away.
3. Your bougie gifted chocolate-bar-on-a-stick is actually a block of hot chocolate powder encased in chocolate and not the delicious consolidated chocolate snack that you expected
4. You forgot a key piece of gear (crampons? skins? ski strap? water?)
5. The pass is snow and ice and driving sucks and you’re 15mi but somehow still 2hrs away from Taco Time

These are suspiciously similar to the list of reasons to laugh:

Yes we call this “backcountry skiing”

1. Your friend postholed hip deep/fell into a tree well for the 3758295th time
2. You’re so far away that it’s actually hilarious you ever thought this was possible
3. Your friend is in tears over their unexpected hot chocolate powder (not the pow we were hoping for, right?)
4. Your friend was a dumbass and didn’t bring skins or water
5. I’m sorry but Taco Time desperation is never funny. Get out.

If you have good friends, they’re going to do their best to interfere too. Sneaking rocks in your pack. Poking you while you try to do the rip-skin-without-removing-ski trick to knock you over. Telling you yeah you should totally ski that way only to watch you crash land off a surprise jump. Slowly undoing the straps on your pack. Seeing how long until you notice there’s a bonus branch hanging from your pack. Reminding you of your freshly ripped pants as you ski past the children sledding at Paradise and a mother gasps at your boldness.

What if we don’t even get to snow (spoiler: we didn’t)

And then there are the things folks don’t glorify on social media: The pine needles that cascade from your body when you finally get home and clog the shower. Starting at 1am. Sleeping in a Winco parking lot on the way back, or spooning their car tire next to the highway. The rainy days where you get soaked to the bone. The days where something spooks everyone (rockfall, avalanches, lizard brain protesting, ghost stories, fearless goats, aggressive mice). The days where someone (never me, no, never) fucked up navigation and you get off route and ran out of time, bonus points if other groups follow your tracks. Being told you totally have alpine cider at the tent so you stay mentally strong, only for your friend to confess at the tent that there is, in fact, no apple cider to be made. Sunburns. Disgusting clothing. Nosebleeds. Injuries. Mystery bruises. Blisters. Heat rashes. Dehydration. Resisting dropping that obnoxious guy in a crevasse and leaving him behind. Climbing hangovers!! I bet everyone who does this has been hungover because of dehydration on a Monday. Don’t ask me hard questions on Mondays, folks.

No green runs in the backcountry… even if it’s a green run
I mean they’re right, even on the worst days* (semi-rad)

Despite all of that, this helpful graphic from semi-rad keeps me motivated:

Amount of woo could be broken down further based on location, expectations, snowpack, number of people that I don’t want to hang out with taking all the lines, level of social starvation over the past 4 weeks, and whether my employer’s stock is doing anything interesting. But in general, skiing ice/scoured tree runs/luge tracks in the rain sure beats sitting at a desk, and usuallyl beats sitting at home wondering if you should have gone skiing, which, coincidentally, is what I’m doing right now. I hope it’s terrible out there.

Pow day if we had gotten high enough (we didn’t)

*I’m waiting until I’m senior enough at my job to have the balls to just set the semi-rad graph to my out-of-office auto response in outlook. I’m not there yet but someday. Mark my words.

It used to be a running joke that if you weren’t getting shut down 30% of the time in the Cascades you weren’t trying hard enough or chasing the right objectives. I realized a few years ago I never saw inversions anymore, and it’s probably because I didn’t attempt anything with a forecast of “partly sunny” aka socked in, but possible to get above the clouds (rare). The element of surprise is half of the reward of a trip. Surprise pow is always better than expected pow. Surprise views are always better than expected views. Surprise inversions are a freaking dream. You’ll never get them if you stop trying. Easy to say from the comfort of my couch.

At the end of the day, the suffering just makes those amazing days that much better. You pay your dues with some slogging in questionable conditions, rack up some karma, get really good at skiing crappy conditions, and eventually you really do land that waist deep powder day or that bluebird spring corn and raging endorphins oversaturate your vision and the views knock you over as soon as you crest the final ridge or the summit and then you get to giggle like kids the whole way down. And that’s what we’re chasing.

p.s. thank you to everyone who let me use pics of them wallowing and eating shit as part of this post. I am fortunate to have friends who still hang out with me despite me spending years saving up albums of wipeouts and misery and I expect nothing less in return.

You gotta keep trying… so you can get this

Yellow Mules MTB

Photos do not do justice to the density or vibrance of the flowers
Pretty river at the start

I know, it’s like I wrote one thing and now the floodgates are open and I can’t stop and maybe last summer wasn’t as much of a flop as I thought. Here’s another highlight of the year, a wild bike ride with barely any reviews on Trailforks that was easily, hands down, the best bike ride I’ve ever done and probably ever will do. I spent the few days before being SO anxious because I had never ridden anything of this caliber, especially after chickening out on some banked turns on a blue run the day prior. I’m happy to say I only walked like 10ft on the way down. Which probably means this should be a green trail if it weren’t for the distance and elevation gain but you know. Let me enjoy the moment okay?

Followed an old road bed for a while
  • Distance: 20mi for the whole lollipop loop
  • Elevation: ~4,000ft gain, ~9,500 highest point
  • Weather: 70’s and sunny
  • Commute from Seattle: Long, it’s outside of Big Sky MT
  • Did I Trip: Actually, genuinely, no

This loop is utterly spectacular. Ride it counterclockwise/backwards (climb 2nd yellow mule first, then go down 1st yellow mule). Go when the flowers are out. Bring a ton of water. Ok here we go.

Rich people watering hillsides improving views

It starts on a super popular hiking trail that’s basically paved. I was so worried about the distance and duration of this ride I went straight to the granny gear when we started climbing, ready to sandbag. In fact I titled my Strava record “bears hear my granny gear coming.” The trail cris-crosses some actual roads in the first few miles, reassuring me if I totally died (or, bears) there’d be an easy escape. Those soon disappeared though, and the trail started started feeling like true wilderness despite glimpses across valleys of construction for ski resorts and whatever the Yellowstone Club does with their land that us plebs will never see. And as usual my body started to perk up after the first mile or so.

CAUGHT WALKING HIS BIKE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER

The climbing is pretty consistent on the way up (second yellow mule) but the views get better and better as you do. We stopped for a snack around an hour in, I was feeling great but Max not so much. I even caught him walking his bike, a sight never before seen to our usual biking crew. The trail was through sparse forests and mini meadows full of wildflowers, and as we got further out and higher up the trees gave way to more and more wildflowers.

Not the water you want to drink

I. Love. Wildflowers. Like, on par with prime larches and waist deep powder and smooth clean warm waves and a really good hand crack and a tickly 4-3 suspension in a song I’ve been enjoying. So the pace slows as the photos ramp up, which is good because suddenly Max is getting sick on the side of the trail.

Our experiences diverged as he trended towards miserable and I was in my personal heaven surrounded by rainbows and color and full of endorphins. We took a few breaks as he pushed through whatever was going on with his body, electrolytes/elevation/exhaustion we’ll never know. At this point it made more sense to get to the top ridge and bike the easier downhill rather than bike down what we had climbed up, so we carried on. And the meadows were getting more and more spectacular so not to sound like an unsympathetic sociopath or anything but I was flipping back and forth between being concerned and unadulterated bliss drinking in our surroundings. I will never complain about flopping down for a break in a meadow that looks like something out of a fantasy animation. I’m honestly not sure what I’d have done in his situation. I wouldn’t want to call SAR but not sure I’d have the guts to get through it either. You never know til you’re faced with it I guess, fortunately Max is a tough one. Suffering is a skill.

Let the bliss (and puking) begin
Back in the saddle
And we aren’t even at the ridiculous meadows yet
There are WAY worse places to be miserable
Looking back at Lost Peak which now has an 80 person gondola going to the summit which is insane
They’re STILL GOING THERE ARE STILL SO MANY FLOWERS
We haven’t even hit the lupine yet

We reached the ATV trail at the top of the ridge and took a break near a post (needed some landmark) where Max ran out of water. We hadn’t really passed any streams on the way up, and assumed there wouldn’t be any on the way down, and there certainly wasn’t any on the top of this massive mellow rolling ridge. I had already given him most of mine since I am a camel living in a perpetual state of dehydration, so at this point I grabbed both our camelbacks and took off cross country.

I figured there had to be some tiny snow patches lingering from winter on the northern slopes that would have some runoff at best or snow I could melt at worst. I apologized to every wildflower I trampled and suddenly came across our oasis, a 15×15′ snow patch with a tiny river trickling off its foot. I dug out a bit of a river and waited for the silt to settle and filled the bladders as best I could, jogging back up to Max through the disorienting featureless rolling grassy hills. Max is a crusher on the downhill sections so we knew as soon as we were done with the climbing he’d be fine getting back to the car and I’d be the one we had to worry about.

WE ARE SAVED

Water scouting mission successful, We hung out for a few minutes before biking the ridge to our turn off onto First Yellow Mule, where I immediately got off my bike and walked the first switchback downhill through a flood of “ah shit fun’s over” and “what have I gotten myself into” anxiety. I am not a strong downhill biker. I’m great at climbing, I got the endurance game down pat, but I’m a chicken going downhill especially after going OTB last year (did not inspire confidence). Max, on the other hand, was probably like “thank god” “fuck yeah” “fun’s just beginning.” Fortunately for both of us, the rest of the downhill was insane blissful cruising. Max had to wait but not THAT long since I was surprisingly comfortable on everything, probably because there were no drops or tight switchbacks. Again, maybe it’s a green trail if not for the distance and elevation. Shh.

crap, fun’s over, turns out I have to actually bike downhill

The main difficulty is that trail is extremely narrow and rutted, so it made sense to hop out of it and just bike raw ground for much of the descent. Which is terrible, there really should be some trail maintenance to prevent that, but the deep rut is nearly unbikeable. It’s extremely jarring trying to control a bike in a several-inch-deep single rut at speed. I will happily volunteer to help if someone tells me who to talk to. But ignoring that part, wow. Single track flowy downhill with barely any turns through ridiculous seas of wildflowers. I barely took photos because it was just too fast and fun. I have never biked anything like it and couldn’t believe it wasn’t more popular, but maybe Big Sky attracts more park type mountain bikers than cross country. I was legitimately disappointed when we got back to the intersection that would put us back on the popular/maintained hiker trail. I had lived a lifetime up on those mule trails and wasn’t ready for civilization yet.

No wait! I’m gonna be okay!

I still look back on this ride like it’s a dream I didn’t actually experience in real life. Did it really happen if you didn’t suffer at all? No type ii fun? And it didn’t even take us that long, under five hours so it was pretty much a half day trip given how quickly we were able to bike down despite all the breaks on the way up

. If it wasn’t for the pics I’d be thinking I glorified it in my head, I can’t believe there are barely any reviews on trailforks.. It was one of those trips where everything lines up too perfectly for a 10/10 experience. I know Max probably downgraded that to like 6/10 but I was on top of the world, ready to quit my job and just bike the wildflower-riddled west for a few weeks. Of course that didn’t happen, instead I worked from a dark hotel room all day the next day and had my recently re-discovered soul sucked back out of my body again immediately. But wow did that trip set the bar high for biking. And a huge thanks to Max for powering through the distress, I’m not sure I’d have been able to do that myself. Glad we were able to redeem some of the day on the way down!

I mean come on this is unreal

Lost Creek Ridge/Lake Byrne

Home sweet home for the night
You can understand why I fell off the trail later

“It’s just a backpacking trip” “we’re just camping at a lake” “it’ll be a piece of cake once we get to the ridge” “we’re not even climbing a peak how hard can it be?” Hard enough to shove your elitist climber attitude up your fat out of shape ass while you undulate along a beautiful stunning ridge for what feels like a decade of your life wondering if you actually died and are meant to meander this ridge for infinity. But if there was a twilight zone to be stuck in, this is probably up there in my top choices.

  • Distance: ~22 miles
  • Elevation gain: >10k (Brad: “I mean we might as well have just climbed Rainier”
  • Weather: 80’s and sunny
  • Commute from Seattle: 2.5hrs
  • Did I Trip: Briefly forgot how to walk and fell off the (forested) trail
goofballs in their natural habitat

I don’t remember much about this trip either, which is what you get for taking 6mo to write about it and not taking any notes during the trip. What I do remember:

I THINK we skipped Cinnabon at the pilot gas station, probably because Surafel cooked us breakfast like spoiled children. I do remember the hike to Bingley Gap taking what felt like ages, and thinking we’d break above treeline and it would mellow out after that. That’s false. Bingley Gap is very much still wooded and the elevation gain continues beyond it. “Mellows out” per WTA is a lie. You could argue it’s mellow relative to the switchbacks, but it’s very much up and down and not exactly running a high open ridge like you might hope. I had been saving this for a trail run someday, thank god I didn’t attempt that.

“Ridge trail” snaking below Sloan
Hardtack Lake and Glacier Peak peeking out

That said, Sloan and Bedal are STUNNERS. I have a hundred near duplicate photos of these two towering across the valley over meadows because they just continue to blow your mind every time you turn around. A group warned us that the last drinkable water was in about a quarter mile and there’d be nothing between there and the lakes, but we found that verifiably false; they must have higher standards for running water than we do.

Camp Lake with its ice float

Eventually you do gain the ridge, only to immediately drop down onto a long wandering bench (miles long) on the north side. The trail that drops down is like a mountain bike park trail where they fit in as many tight windy turns as possible into a small distance like a tapeworm of a trail so you get the biggest bang for your buck except I don’t want bang for my buck here I want efficiency. Finally it goes straight to the right, where you wrap around lose elevation and then gain elevation again and then lose it again and then gain it again until you’re cursing the OG trail builders for making this the way that it is.

You traverse above Hardtack Lake which looks like a great place to maybe be a tadpole, and then wrap around more shoulders and eventually arrive at Camp Lake, allegedly one of the coldest lakes in the Cascades, reinforced by the presence of icebergs. Never one to back down from a challenge, Brad starts getting ready to jump in, I can’t sit there doing nothing so I follow, and Surafel walks in up to his knees, shouts “I’m from AFRICA” and bails back to dry warm land while Brad and I see who gets brain freeze first. Like a whole new person, I pack up my stuff and climb the final elevation gain to “Little Siberia,” a stretch of beautiful subalpine with Glacier towering above you dwarfing all of the surrounding peaks. There were numbers spray painted on some of the rocks, never did figure out what they meant.

Leaving Little Siberia, Surafel standing out against Glacier Peak looking bare
Lake Byrne from above looking ABSURD

We got a great view of Lake Byrne below (omg it’s still that far away?!) and dropped down only to see the first campsite taken by people hiding in their tends to avoid the bugs. Very well we’ll take the second one. We dropped gear, jumped in the lake, Surafel started fishing but the fish were too smart and full of mosquitos (thank you fish). I found the remains of a pit toilet, RIP and thank you for your service. Brad and I hiked/schwacked to the pass on the southeast side of Lake Byrne to check out the Painted Traverse, which may legitimately have been easier than backtracking Lost Creek Ridge. I headed back to camp where I had a delicious dinner of cheesy pasta I assume and fell asleep at like 7, until Brad suddenly was like HEY GUYS GET UP SUNSET IS RIDIC and I clambered out of my tent to the most spectacular show of color on Glacier Peak I’ve ever seen. It was literally rainbow, I just about lost my mind. And then I went to bed and slept like a rock for the first time in probably months.

Worth getting out of bed for

We got moving early to beat the heat, knowing midday would be brutal and there weren’t really any lakes to jump in on the last half of the hike out (at least not without dropping a ton of elevation to Round Lake). I don’t remember much of the way back, so it probably was a sufferfest that wrecked my legs.

Oh wait no we did find a porcini that was past prime for eating, Sloan and Bedal were still amazing, Brad sat in the creek where we got water (this is why you filter your water folks), and then back in the forest proper I straight up slipped on some pine needles and fell like 15ft off trail. Surafel watched my leg swell up from a distance, I did a mini PAS on myself and decided nothing was broken so… let’s keep hiking I guess? With my new egg shin? Sucked so bad but functioned fine. I was quite happy to be back at the car and appreciate my brain dumping a few hours of suffering down switchbacks in a forest from my memory to make room for more fun things. And glad someone else drove so I didn’t have to.

For a total flop of a season in terms of my usual hobbies, this was a 10/10 trip and one of the highlights of my summer. It might have been the only overnight trip I did, actually. I can’t believe it didn’t get me back to writing immediately, but I do so much writing for my job I assume it just wasn’t feeling fun anymore, not to mention no free time. But the fact I remember more than a few bullet points obviously means it was GREAT.

Glacier Peak and the Painted Traverse from the pass Southeast of Lake Byrne. Not sure the lake has a name
How can Surafel look so sad in a place like this

Lookout Mountain Lookout

10% of the hike 90% of the photos
This state is SO GREEN

Getting back into something is hard. I stopped writing, I stopped hiking biking climbing swimming surfing basically everything besides working this summer. Work had consumed my life, and not in a good way. So I think, to get back into writing, I’ll do the same as I did with every other hobby I have. I did some short pop culture hikes. I went on 2-3 mile runs. I sat on a surfboard for 90min and caught like two waves (I wasn’t sitting, I actually paddled a lot, I just ended up being every freaking wave). My first day back at the climbing gym I don’t think I tried anything harder than a 5.9. I couldn’t even do 15 push ups straight. But that was three months ago and now I’m running daily and climbing 5.10’s and the occasional 5.11 and can definitely do 15 push ups straight. And I’m on a new team at work! So time to get back to writing blog posts, starting with minimal words. The pictures are pretty, and they still say something about the trip. And eventually the rest of the words will come.

I can’t get enough wildflowers

Lookout Mountain Lookout, off Cascade River Road outside of Marblemount. This has been on my OG hikes list from moving here in 2014, except first I wanted to save it for an overnight, then I wanted to get up there in winter or early spring on skis, finally I gave up and Sarah was free and I convinced her to do this butt kicker of a hike even though neither of us were in the mental or physical shape to do it. She told me daily leading up to the hike that she might have to turn around. I’ve already turned around on this hike like three times for varying reasons (dog paw injury, friend’s knee, third time must have been my fault bc I’ve blocked it from memory) so a fourth bail wouldn’t be the end of the world.

  • Distance: 9.5mi round trip
  • Elevation gain: 4,500 gain (5,700 highest point)
  • Weather: 70’s and sunny, a bit smokey
  • Commute from Seattle: 2:30 without traffic
  • Did I Trip: I don’t remember, so I will assume yes, because I am a klutz
Tell me that’s not the biggest paintbrush you’ve ever seen

Here is what I remember:

It is steep

Sarah in her element. Avg page 0.25mph

We took like 800 pictures of a butterfly that was really hamming it up. Sarah was responsible for 793 of those. I took 7.

Sarah has an insane eye for color and lighting and notices things I’d never see myself but I think I’m getting better the more I hike with her

It was the longest 4.5mi to the top of any hike I’ve ever done

Definitely bring hiking poles, and lots of water. It’s 90% in the forest so sun was not a big problem. Sarah says that’s the only reason she had a shot at success.

Trail wrapping around a shoulder and taking the scenic route to the top
Finally!

There was paintbrush that was like traffic orange, I have never seen anything like it before. And I’ve seen a lot of paintbrush.

We made it to the lookout. 10/10, would return for overnight. Monogram Lake/Teebone Ridge better for skis.

10/10 would sleep

Sarah’s phone died, so I gave her mine for the way down because she was having artist withdrawals not being able to take pictures

Then she immediately took the best wildflower photo of the day, never mind my prior 230 attempts. Quality > quantity

We also spent probably 20min watching squirrels chase each other around a tree like we were in a Disney movie

It was the longest 9.5mi hike I’ve ever done

Sarah took this
Sarah took this too
And this one
Guess who took this one? Nope, still Sarah

Golden Lakes MTB

Nearing the bottom of Angel’s Staircase
Approach trail below treeline

I should have written this while the adrenaline was still pumping and my body felt great but alas, here we are a week later with a splint I can’t take seriously, a wrist that has hot pokers shooting from my elbow to palm, and a drugstore of painkillers i’m avoiding taking out of sheer stubbornness. An iron will is the only thing standing between me and buying the rest of the ice cream at the corner store and eating it until I have become an ice cream cone myself. Fortunately ambien is not in my drugstore selection or I’m sure I’d come around at 3am mixing a bathtub of ice creams.

Views are starting!! And larches!
  • Distance: Well… ~29 miles. 19 on a bike, 4 pushing/trying to bike, 6 running, 6 hiking. “Wow, weird combo” yeah well. read on.
  • Elevation gain: ~6k gain. 4500 on a bike 2500 hiking.
  • Weather: 50’s and sunny!
  • Distance from Seattle: 5hrs w/ the i90 construction
  • Did I Trip: technically no… over the handlebars of a bike isn’t tripping right? It’s flying.

I finally left Seattle around 6pm. I had a pretty mediocre week but I was stoked to get out with Matt and Anita for an awesome bike followed by awesome campsite. I messaged Brooke and Amber at 8pm sitting in dead stopped traffic on i90. Why can’t one thing go right. I can’t even complain about the traffic because someone probably died to make it this bad. Oh wait, it’s construction. I can bitch. I stopped to fill my gas guzzling climate destroying mountain polluting SUV for the second time. The fuel gauge has been broken for years, I rely on the odometer, which has been fine except these new gas pumps are so sensitive and turn off so easily I never know if it actually filled up or not. Last week I had to fill my tank in 1gal increments up to 13gal, cursing the fuel pump for thinking it was full. Don’t lie to me.

Cooney/Switchback Peak over meadows

Matt and Anita caught up to me on the forest road. I let them go since their headlights were blinding me and I could see my car’s shadow. This isn’t unusual, my headlights suck. Except when I parked, Anita said “you know a headlight is out, right?” No. No I did not. I pitched my tent next to my car and crawled into my sleeping bag, ready to have a weekend where the only focus was adventuring with whatever you could carry.

Cooney Peak over Cooney Lake with my finger in the way

Saturday morning we got moving around 8am. The plan was for Matt and I to bike while Anita hiked to the lake with all of their overnight gear, we’d meet her at the lake, I’d bike back to the car and swap bike for backpacking gear and hike back up to the lake. “Don’t feel obligated!!” Anita said. “Totally fine if you end up wanting to crash at the car or head home.” “Anita,” I said with 100% confidence, “the only thing that would stop me from camping with you guys is if I literally got injured on the bike ride.” We laughed, and Matt and I took off.

Larches still good

The trail at first is smooth and mild besides one rocky section. But immediately I felt like crap! Usually I’m so good at climbing but I was walking mild uphills. I felt like I was slipping off my bike seat, and my freaking lats were getting tired hanging onto the handlebars. I figured it was because I lifted the other day, maybe it was just DOMS and it’d clear up after a bit. My legs felt strong, just like I was biking through mud. For once I felt better on the downhills than the uphills! You do get a few stretches of super fun downhill after you take a left fork in the trail (twice). I finally pulled over and told Matt about the weird seat. Does this look off to you? He laughed. Yes, Eve, it’s like entirely leaning backwards, how long have you been biking like that?! He fixed it in like 30 seconds so it was pointing slightly downward towards the front of the bike. So now I know how it’s supposed to be. I sat down and WOW. It was comfortable, supportive, and I was actually over the pedals. I’m not sure it’s ever been that comfortable. Felt like a million bucks. Alright. This loop is happening!

So tired but so beautiful

Cooney Lakes larches were past prime but still spectacular. Last time I had been there was frigid, this time it felt like summer. Views started opening up, pace slowed as I wanted more and more pics. We took a break at the lake, I had a pb&j. We knew the unrideable hike a bike was coming up. I swear, that hike a bike above Cooney Lakes felt like one of the hardest things I had ever done. I was dying. I laughed when Stephen said on a scramble back in August that he was rescinding his theory that mountain biking was the only exercise you need, but maybe he just wasn’t doing the right kind of bike trips. This would cover anything. I remember announcing “this is where I need to hear Anita cursing from the wilderness in the distance” as I lifted/tactfully hucked my bike over a bona fide scramble move. It’s steep, you’re pushing a 30lb bike, it’s sandy and rocky and slippery and you have to pay attention to where you’re walking and where the bike wheels are going, and… oh, my rear wheel had loosened so it wasn’t rolling. Mechanical issue #2. Again, Matt fixes it momentarily. I’m learning, slowly but surely. If rear wheel is stuck, check the axle before checking the brakes. I also now know how to remove the brake calipers(?), though if there was a problem I don’t think I’d know what to do about it.

We finally got to the top of the saddle above Cooney Lakes. Oh my god. It legitimately occurred to me that was worse than anything I did on Challenger but I think I was being a little dramatic. “Do you think we’ll want to do this again, or is this a one and done?” Matt asked. I laughed. I had just been wondering that. We’ll find out after the downhill sections. I think it’ll be a statute-of-limitations type thing where I’ll want to do it again but not for like 7 years.

Merchant Basin, Sunrise Lake tucked away in the cirque

We rode a small section to get to Angel’s Staircase, took a break to snap photos, joked around with another group of bikers (hard to ignore a story when you overhear “I’m a man who shits himself a lot, so I just wanted to offer support and advice”), and started down. This was the part I was most anxious about but I figured if I took it slow I’d be fine. I had to walk some switchbacks, but I rode most of the straightaways, and Matt showed me how to “pivot” on tight switchbacks – put your inside foot on the ground and you can swing your bike around way more easily than getting on and off. I managed a few, albeit slowly, but still better than the alternative! I thought the exposure would freak me out but I actually felt fine, and got another tip from Matt – keep your exposure-side foot down, and you’re more likely to wipe out into the hillside vs falling down the exposed slope. I was feeling pretty solid.

Riding to the start of the staircase

The problem with downhill was the third mechanical issue. My dropper post, fully down for the downhill, would randomly shoot up like an ejection seat going over significant bumps. Not a problem on the uphill because my weight was often on it, but downhill, yikes. I had to randomly stop to put it back down, and I think I had an advantage here being female. We drained some air out of it (can do that with just a rock, I learned). Matt put a pebble on the seat and pressed the release lever, launching the rock several feet into the air to roaring laughter from the bikers around us. We settled on having it slightly less than full so I’d have to physically pull it up to adjust it, but that’s fine since the uphills and downhills are pretty committing/slow transitions are fine here, no need to be constantly putting it up and down.

Top of the world!!
Starting down Angel’s Staircase
Cruiser sections

The two miles between Angel’s Staircase and the turnoff to Boiling Lake were incredible. Almost flowy trail (some rock gardens and logs/roots), astounding views, you feel like you’re in the middle of nowhere. We stopped to take pics and noticed a silent man and donkey enjoying the afternoon sun and views. Where have I seen that before? I pulled off trail and asked if they were up around White Pass in August 2020. It’s entirely possible, do we look familiar? I laughed. Yes. Daryl and Lou, the ~30yo donkey. Lou butted his head into me looking for snacks. Sorry buddy, I don’t have anything worth sharing. But you’re so soft.

Lou living the dream

We carried on, cruising along the mellow trail through stands of larches and pine and meadows, my confidence building with everything I rolled over. I stopped to walk rock gardens, but small drops were fine. Even drops in quick succession. The bike was becoming an extension of my body, I was getting used to having my weight back to keep the front wheel up going over small steps boom boom boom until suddenly something pitched me forward right before a drop. I saw the handlebars slow-mo passing under my body before the front wheel even hit the ground. The only thought I remember is “hmm, not a good sign” and suddenly i was in a pile on the ground tangled up with my bike in dappled sunlight, flooded with adrenaline. Step 1: took inventory in a split second. Head not hit, nothing was horrifically wrong but holy shit my wrist. I grabbed the radio and called Matt. “Man down. Help.”

New friends helping get me water at Boiling Lake

Matt radioed back immediately/ “You okay? Need me to come back?” “I think I’m okay, but not sure. Yes come up.” Step 2, get heart rate under control, don’t throw up. Slightly more in depth physical, breathing is fine, head is fine, everything still moves, no significant deformations/bleeding. Bike fine too. Left wrist is bad. Hip and shin are enough to complain about but very much overshadowed by the wrist. Palp everything. Legs definitely okay besides soon to be big bruises and bloody cuts. Wrist… unclear. Point tenderness, immediate swelling, no crepitus. But fuck it hurts. And it’s so… weak? Like it wouldn’t respond normally to commands to move. My fingers could all move. Barely, but enough I was confident that tendons were intact. Must be a bad sprain.

I got up, picked up the bike, and started walking towards Matt. Walk it off. Great, legs were gonna be fine, we’ll see if the wrist pain wears off. “I think I would know if it was broken” I said, before realizing I had heard that line twice this summer and both times the bones in question were broken. I was mildly embarrassed and disappointed. The easiest section of the day. I got complacent and moved too fast, wasn’t ready for that last drop. Still not entirely sure what happened. Lost momentum abruptly, got thrown forward, and couldn’t correct quickly enough going over the last drop. Dammit, that’s like a half cup of water that’s going to inflammation and not hydration! Let’s just push bikes to Boiling Lake and figure it out from there. I told Matt to ride (of course) and I’d catch up but he was content to walk.

Sneak peaks of Boiling Lake

At the lake, we ran into the other group of bikers, and two named Victor and I think Jeff helped me filter water. I couldn’t even get the bladder out of my pack, nevermind open it up or pump water. I checked CSMs (circulation/sensation/motion) in my left hand, Matt grabbed tape and some fabric, and wrapped it. I was shouting as he wrapped it because it hurt so badly and he asked if it should be looser and I said no!! We need to get out of here, it needs all the support it can get! Keep going! We got it nice and tight and taped it up to hold it in place. Pretty solid for a backcountry bandage. No change to CSMs. Perfect. I took a single Advil. Matt had stronger things too I think but I wanted to start with what I knew. “I have some.. oxycodone if you want that?” one of the other bikers asked. We cracked up. That might be overkill. I do actually have to get back to the car. “Not to be a debbie downer but that wrist is gonna hurt a lot more tomorrow, heads up.” I knew he was right. Ugh. Oh, did I mention all of this is happening in one of the most beautiful locations in Washington? Boiling lake is ridiculous.

Up next was the second section of hike a bike, fortunately less steep than the climb above Cooney Lakes. Beautiful switchbacks. Matt had to help me clip my running pack because I had lost all fine motor control (swelling, not because of the bandage). He helped me lift the bike over a few larger rocks, but I soon figured out I could lift the frame with my right arm easily enough. “Hey Eve!!” I heard from several switchbacks above. It was the bikers who had helped with the water. “Do you have lights?!” I laughed. “Yes!! We do!” So insanely good of them to check in on us. They were camping at the trailhead too, and invited me to join them if I didn’t hike back up to camp so I wouldn’t be sitting at the car alone and injured. They were so freaking funny it was a tempting backup plan.

Boiling Lake had the best larches of the trip

On the ridge above Boiling Lake we got in touch with Anita via the radios and told her we were on our way, but I was potentially injured. We had tossed around some ideas, I could stay with Anita while Matt went to the cars to get my camping stuff and came back, I could take the bike out and car camp and head out in the morning, I could get my own stuff and meet them back at the lake.

I tried to ride coming down from the pass, but everything I rolled over that wasn’t smooth soft dirt sent fire up my left arm. I couldn’t grip or control the handlebars with my left arm. Matt rode slowly while I biked clear patches and walked the rest. “Get a pic of me biking” I asked Matt, thinking so if it’s broken I have proof that I tried. “Remember when we said this might be a one and done? Or a 10yr trip? I think we’re going to have to come back sooner as a revenge trip.” We stashed the bikes at the turn off to Upper Eagle Lake, and found Anita at a glorious campsite next to the lake. I figured I wasn’t driving back to Seattle that night, so I might as well camp and enjoy the scenery. And I so didn’t want to deal with the bike, getting it out would be slow. I decided on the third option. I’d run back to the car, grab camping gear, and hike back up.

We told her the story, had a quick snack, and I went on my way. It was 5:25 and I wanted to be back at camp by 10. I figured 90min to run to the car and then 3 hours to hike back to the campsite. Well, thanks to a well maintained trail with mild downhill the entire way and heaps of adrenaline and cortisol, I was at the car in under an hour packing up my overnight gear and my legs felt AWESOME. I was FLYING. I was originally going to do a trail run Sunday or climb Bigelow, but those were out of the picture so I took minimal gear back up to camp with me. I asked four hikers with headlamps if they had spare batteries in case mine died (I didn’t) and within ten seconds there were four outstretched hands with batteries in front of me. I swear these hobbies have the most supportive, helpful people out there. Zero judgement, just yes please how can I help and be safe out there! I was overflowing with gratitude.

Dropping down towards Eagle Lakes

The stars were out in full force. I lived a lifetime in the 3mi traverse to the lake after the last huge switchbacks. At Upper Eagle Lake I stumbled through three or four campsites before finding Anita’s, perched on a rocky knoll with the best views. She and Matt were half asleep, but not too sleepy to immediately try to help. “Do you need help with your tent? Water? I’ll get up!!” No no, I think I’m fine, I got it. Miraculously, Anita sleeps with a splint for her left wrist. She handed it to me. Something along the lines of “I’ll be fine one night, you need this more than I do.” Taking one for the team! I lost and re found the splint four times while setting up all my gear but finally put it on. I flopped into my sleeping bag, wet from sweat and freezing, hoping my clothes would dry from body heat. After 15min it was apparently that was not happening. I changed in the frigid air with my bum wrist. I think the worst article of clothing for an arm injury is a sports bra. It’s amazing I didn’t break my wrist in a second place trying to get the damn thing off.

Don’t need a wrist to run!

I woke up in the morning to a beautiful sunrise lighting the cirque up pink. I made my way to the campsite toilet, realizing I hadn’t gone to the bathroom in something like 16 hours. Body must have shut down all nonessential functions for a bit. I had a huge breakfast even though I wasn’t hungry. But then Anita gave me a vanilla scone that was the most delicious thing I’ve ever had. Sugar. My body wanted straight sugar.

We started packing up. Anita helped me pack my sleeping bag, which I couldn’t do 😦 And then she made a life saving offer. I figured I’d just hike out with her and push my bike while Matt rode down. But what if Matt took the heavy overnight pack, she wore the day pack he rode with Saturday, and she rode my bike out? I’m a bit bigger than she is so my bike might be too big, but there was a chance this could work, and holy crap I didn’t want to push the bike if I didn’t have to. And I really didn’t want to ride out of there. The trail from the lake was the easiest section of the ride by far with plenty of smooth dirt sections, but with an overnight pack and how badly the tiniest rocks hurt the prior day I had no doubt it would have sucked for me. My wrist at this point was visibly swollen from knuckle to halfway up my forearm. But here was Anita, getting excited to bike!! Heck yes! Take it! And the more you enjoy it the better I’ll feel too! Just tell me it’s amazing and I’d have loved it when we get down.

We hiked back to the stashed bikes, Anita took my helmet and hopped on my bike. I hiked ahead of them to get a head start and snap a few pics of Anita. Of course they caught up to me within minutes and it was off to the races! I ran/hiked the way out, running the soft sections that didn’t feel too high impact. I just wanted to be the fuck out of there at that point. I wasn’t enjoying the journey anymore.

Brilliant sunrise colors
Larch reflection

I popped out at the TH to Anita and Matt tailgating at the car with a camping chair and a beer ready for me! Waiting to make sure I was alive. “It was amazing, you’d have loved it!!!” I love taking a few minutes to chill at the car after a great trip, and this was perfect. I added some cheese to my crackers and cheese, had another pb&j, and half a beer. I had been fantasizing about a Subway sandwich (chicken bacon ranch w pepperjack and chipotle mayo on the cheesy italian bread) for like an hour at this point but knew I had to get back to Seattle. Matt and Anita helped get my crap into my car. I drove slow on the way out, turning sucked with my bum wrist. It’s not strong enough to hold the wheel in place, nevermind turn it, which means I need to get creative with the shifting/turning pattern while driving my manual car. Luckily highway driving was easy. City streets and tight turns were peppered with shouts and groans and strings of curses.

I started voice-to-texting people once I was back in cell service. Tell my family, tell my boyfriend, Brooke and Amber, Brad and Surafel, message a group of besties to look up what urgent cares did x rays and were open past 8 so I could try to get an appointment that night, are there ERs where you can wait outside or somewhere else so you don’t sit in a room of dying people feeling bad for taking up resources with your tiny injury? I struck out on all counts. I got home and called my neighbor. Hey Jeff, I think I broke my wrist, if you have five minutes can you help me get my bike out of the car? Everyone was so insanely helpful. I showered, made a grilled cheese (always tempted to say grill myself a cheese thank you archer), and decided it could wait til the morning. I swear if someone took my vitals in that moment they’d probably think I was dying anyway so might as well eat, hydrate, and rest, and then figure it out.

Can’t choose between larch reflections

I got x rays at 9am at urgent care. “What made you come in today vs Saturday or yesterday?” they asked. “Well… I was pretty far away, got back late last night.” I replied, not wanting to explain everything. “The radiologist will call later today with results.” Cool, I can wait. Five minutes later she came back in. “Actually, it’s pretty clearly broken. We’re out of splints but here’s an ace bandage and a referral to an ortho.” I went on my merry way and called like 40 orthos who were booked out for weeks until remembering OPA Ortho, who had helped with my sprained knee/potential tear years ago. An ortho way too good for my routine fracture could see me in two days. Sick. The rest is soon-to-be-history. I mean if there was a limb to hurt it’s my nondominant wrist, and if there was a time to do it, it’s right now when the weather is changing to crappy but it’s not ski season yet.

Anita ready to ride out!!

Things I will miss: climbing, gym climbing, surfing, lifting, swimming.

Things I think I can still do: hike, run, ski, lift with good limbs, and maybe I’ll go find a stationary cycle.

Daily things that suck: chopping food, typing, driving, washing hair, opening tupperware, opening jars, turning doorknobs, scrubbing Invisalign, sleeping, petting cats and dogs, putting on socks and pants, zipping jackets.

Things I’m grateful for: Matt and Anita for being awesome company and keeping up the good spirits, Matt being willing to take newbies out on adventures and being super chill with injuries, Anita for miraculously having a left wrist splint and riding my bike out and helping me pack, people who are excited to help in case of emergency, super wholesome hiking/biking communities, Andy and Esther for selling me a tv ASAP and moving furniture I can’t move myself, a family who naturally gives me 50/50 sympathy and sass, coworkers who understand putting health before work. And an ortho who can probably build a better wrist than I was born with if it comes to that. And the same coworker I frantically texted for my messed up knee years ago has had the same fracture… so he was, once again, a phenomenal resource!

My bike & I matching the larches (photo credit Matt!)
accurate recap of events thanks to Kyle P’s amazing and hilarious art skills